I WANNA RUN!!!!

Why is it that when I'm stuck at my desk working and don't have the option to leave, is when I always get the biggest urges to work out? But then when I'm off work and staring my elliptical down from across the room, I feel not only no urge to work out, but an even bigger urge NOT to work out? I don't get this...I think it's some form of witchery that the junk food or diet pill people put on me.

Well I got my current issue of Women's Health magazine and decided...for once...to open it. I found this ad for Nike + and it had something to do w/ipods too. So I looked into it more online and found out what that's all about. I'm sure most of you already know, but basically, Nike has these shoes that you put this little sensor into and that sensor links up with your ipod or Nike wrist band. While you're running/walking, the sensor reports your speed, milage, pace, etc. to the band and/or the ipod. While you're listening to music, you can press a button on your ipod and the Nike sensor chip will tell you, through your ipod, how many miles/steps you've taken, how far you have to go, etc! It's really cool! And the wrist band is actually a USB that you plug into your computer to upload your workouts onto your computer. The Nike website has all kinds of features that allow you to interact w/other runners/walkers. You can view popular routs that other people in your area go on, in case you're looking for a running buddy! You can get into a jogging competition with someone who lives on the other side of the country as you! Really...technology just amazes me :) I swear I'm not adverstising for Nike :) lol, but I really am impressed w/all the interactive/social features that are now part of people's work outs. So, for the shoes (which are specially shaped for my high arches and fat thighs that tilt my feet out) and the sensor and the wrist band, it's about $170. Not bad, right? OH and that includes some cushioned socks :)

So now I'm stuck at my desk but I'm all pumped to go try some power walking, maybe even a little jogging! And I can't :( And I know when I get off work tonight (at 11pm!!) that I'm not going to be up for it.

For now, I'm making a deal with myself. I KNOW if I tell my husband I'm going to buy these things, he'll say "Absolutely not...you're just going to get the stuff because you're all excited and then you'll never use it." Then he'll jerk his head toward my elliptical. Ugh, what a butt. LOL...please understand he didn't actually do this, this is just what I KNOW he will do if I bring up $170 worth of running gear. So, to save that scene from happening, I'm going to make a preemptive deal. If I can work out on my elliptical every day....no, scratch that...5 days a week for the next month, then I can buy the running shoes and accessories :) I'd say that's a good goal!

Down (not the good kind)

Ok support team...I need you already!

I am having such a hard time. My fill did NOTHING! I'm calling first thing tomorrow morning to schedule another one. Today is my 2 month bandiversary and I haven't lost anything more this last month. Granted, I haven't gained, but come on!

How many cc's did it take for you to get to your sweet spot? What do you FEEL when you're properly filled? When my dr. was filling me up and making me drink water, she kept asking "ok how does that feel when you take a drink?" and it felt like nothing! It felt like I was taking a drink of water. What's it supposed to feel like?

Has anyone else gone through this down time so quickly after surgery? I'm TRYING to stay positive, but it's so hard right now.

THANKS SUPPORT TEAM!!!

THANKS

I don't really know how to respond to comments, so I just wanted to say "THANKS" to everyone who leaves me comments. I DO read them and TOTALLY appreciate them :) It's so nice to hear from those of you who have been through this with me and who can offer me words of wisdom and tell me when I need to just sit back, relax, and calm the crap down! LOL!

So thank you! :)

NEW HAIR!

A brand new *me* deserves a brand new hair color!

I've been dirty blond forever, so I decided to go completely drastic and dye my hair BLACK the other day!


I SUPER love it! It has bronze highlights in it too :)

Here's a close up to see the bronze. In person it looks even better!

I also like this pic because you can start to see my face thinning out just a bit. YAY!

And this pic shows that my double chin is STARTING to retract, which I am most anxious for! Even when I was younger and really heavy, I never had double chins or a really fat face, so I could always take face pics and actually look thin!

But this last couple years of gaining weight was ALL in my face, and I was devastated.

So the fact that I'm finally starting to get a neck again and cheek bones is such a huge deal to me :)

My First Work Out/Fill

Well I had my first fill last Friday. It went well. It doesn't hurt any more than having your blood drawn. It's a very awkward sensation having the needle hit the port though, hard to describe. I was given 4 ccs. Usually most patients only get 2 to start with, but since I've been complaining about having ZERO restriction since the day I got out of the hospital, she put more in me. Honestly I'm STILL not feeling the restriction! It's a bit frustrating, but I know that some people take a few fills to get that "sweet spot." Hopefully mine will be found soon!

At the appt, my Dr. said that she'll let me start working out on my elliptical again. I was supposed to wait 6 weeks, and it was 5 when she said I could. It's because I'm her favorite and I'm a fast healer :)

Well...originally my fitness instructor told me not to do more than 5 minutes/day to start with because it will take a while to ease back into. *phhhhhssshhh* yeah right! 5 minutes?? That's all?? So I decided to do 10 minutes on my elliptical and then 10 minutes of weights! Oh........my..........goodness. OUCH! I felt ok while I was actually working out, other than winded. But as soon as I was done and I went to go make my breakfast I about passed out on the kitchen floor! Once the eggs were safely back in the fridge I went and laid down. I felt like I was going to be sick, or black out at least.

That was nuts, I was working out a LOT longer than that BEFORE surgery, so why on earth was 20 minutes more than I could handle? Well, I guess I'm not as fast of a healer as I thought :( So I took today off from working out to "heal" from yesterday's episode!

Tomorrow I will try again. And I will only do 5 minutes :) By next week I'll be able to move to 10 minutes, then 20 the week after and so on.

Sorry it's been so long!

Hey everyone,

Sorry it's been forever since my last post. I've been going through a LOT of emotions lately. Way more than most people can handle, and I'm not doing too good at it either. I've heard this is common after weight loss surgery. I'm working through it, but have become a little anti-social lately. And for me that's rare!

But for a lap-band update, I just wanted to share that right now SUCKS! I'm still 1 week away from getting my fill (well almost, I get it on Friday) and so I'm completely un-restricted right now. I can still eat a lot, and I'm getting hungry in-between small meals so I'm eating bigger meals. I'm eating healthy still, but it's really frustrating when I feel like I'm eating too much.

I'm able to see some difference/ loss in my neck and face, but the scales haven't budged in the last 2 weeks! That's a sure sign I'm beyond ready for my fill! I just want to feel some restriction so I know that this thing is actually working!

So next week I will report on how the fill went. But for now I'm stuck in an emotional and frustrating time. I know it will pass...eventually.

15 LBS GONE!!!

YAY!!!!! I reached my 15 lb weight loss goal today!

I'm so happy!!

I had originally given myself the first month to lost the 15 lbs and it's only been just over 2 weeks! And I still haven't even had a fill yet! And that's only SINCE surgery, that's not counting what I lost before surgery.

A few people have commented that I look good, but honestly I don't see it yet. I know that 15 lbs on me doesn't look like much, so it's going to take a lot more for me to actually start seeing the difference.

Man alive, if I could keep losing 15 lbs every 2 weeks I'd be at goal in NO time! :) LOL, but I know that won't happen. And that's fine :) I'm just excited anyway!