Post Fill Liquid Diet Day 2

Yeah...this pic is putting it mildly. I am SOOOO hungry! :( Stupid liquid diets :( That's the only thing I hate about getting fills. On one hand, I'm so excited to get fills so that I can be properly tightened so that I can control my portions and lose weight. On the other, I go through 3 days of pure torture not being able to eat anything but Jell-O and broth. And for me it's just Jell-O because I cannot STAND broth anymore since my surgery.

Any my poor husband, I don't let him eat for 3 days either, LOL. Well, he can eat, he just can't eat anything I like. So he has to live off of pickles, rice w/salsa, and hummus while I glare at him over my Jell-O cup. I feel bad making him not eat, it's not his fault I chose to get a fill. But still, he does it because he supports me and that's how he can show it best. I'd seriously rip his head off if he TRIED to eat something super yummy around me when I can't eat it. So really this works best for both of us.

So I've lost 4 lbs from my liquid diet, and I'd be more excited about that if I weren't so dang HANGRY!!

Hangry: When you're so hungry you're angry.

Yep...that's me right now. I get really feisty when I'm this hungry. *Sigh* only 1 1/2 more days to go before I can have some real food. I'll get there!

2nd Fill Report

FINALLY I was able to get in for my second fill :) Let me tell you...I was DREADING being weighed because I know I've gained 5 1/2 lbs! I was so afraid that my Dr. was going to say "Stephanie, you are not taking this seriously and you are gaining weight! No one in our patient history has gained weight but you and we are so disappointed!" (see the psychological mess I am?)

But once again, I was proven how it is NOT the number on the scale that measures your success!!! My Dr's office has those really nice scales that send a jolt of electrons up your body and then print out a little receipt that tell you all kinds of stuff, like your BMI, your lean muscle mass, your bone density, etc. So I hopped up on the scale, she said my weight and I said "DANG IT!" because by saying the weight out loud she confirmed that I had in fact gained 5 1/2 lbs exactly. So I went back out to the waiting room and actually started crying. Yes...I started crying over 5 1/2 lbs. I know that most of you who would try and comfort me would say that 5 1/2 lbs is nothing, but when you're trying to LOSE weight, not losing anything would be frustrating enough but then GAINING is just un-acceptable.

Well, as I hinted at before, there is a happy ending. When the Dr. came in to give me my fill, I started crying again and she asked what was wrong and I said "I've gained weight and I'm so upset about it and I'm afraid I'm going to fail." She looked at me and said "Why are you gaining weight?" and I said "I don't knooowwwwww!" :( and she said, " Of course you do. Tell me why," so I went into this long explanation about how I thought maybe it was water weight from being bloated from my T.T.O.T.M. and I was rambling on and on. She stopped me and said "I highly doubt that, it's probably because you aren't filled enough yet!" and so I was excited that she wasn't trying to make me say that the real reason I gained weight was because I ate ice cream! She looked at my little receipt that the scale gave me and said that ACTUALLY, I've only gained 1.5 lbs of actual weight and then 4 lbs gained was all muscle mass!!! She told me that my overall body fat was lower than it's ever been, even with the 1.5 lbs gained :D YAY!

I got 2 more CCs in my band (for a total of 6) and am hoping that makes a big difference :) So for now I'm happy. And once again I am reminded that the numbers on the scale don't always show what's going on inside :) That'll last as long as it takes for me to start starving off of my liquid diet.

Sorry!

I'm sorry friends and family, I've been SO bad about posting lately. I'm STUCK in this rut where I'm not losing ANYTHING. It's making me want to eat things I know I shouldn't and it's making me lose all my will-power. Now I know why they say if you want to lose weight FAST, get a bypass, if you have a little time, get lap-band. I don't regret getting my band, certainly not. I'm just so beyond impatient that it's making me have a negative attitude. Bah- and humbug!

However, fear not...my fill appointment is right around the corner! I am going in on the 11th to get another fill. I'm honestly hoping she'll give me another 4! I have 4 now and it's doing nothing at all, not even the slightest bit of restriction.

I'll probably get grumpy over being on a liquid diet again, but honestly if it'll allow me to see those numbers on the scale budge again, as they haven't in SO long :(, then I'll deal w/jell-o and broth!

I haven't been commenting but I've been keeping an eye on everyone elses blogs too...you guys inspire me, even if you don't know it :)

WHAT YOU'VE LOST

Your weight loss =
1 pound = a Guinea Pig
1.5 pounds = a dozen Krispy Kreme glazed donuts
2 pounds = a rack of baby back ribs
3 pounds = an average human brain
4 pounds = an ostrich egg
5 pounds = a Chihuahua
6 pounds = a human’s skin
7.5 pounds = an average newborn
8 pounds = a human head
10 pounds= chemical additives an American consumes each year
11 pounds = an average housecat
12 pounds = a Bald Eagle
15 pounds = 10 dozen large eggs
16 pounds = a sperm whale’s brain
20 pounds = an automobile tire
23 pounds = amount of pizza an average American eats in a year
24 pounds = a 3-gallon tub of super premium ice cream
25 pounds = an average 2 year old
30 pounds = amount of cheese an average American eats in a year
33 pounds = a cinder block
36 pounds = a mid-size microwave
40 pounds = a 5-gallon bottle of water or an average human leg
44 pounds = an elephant’s heart
50 pounds = a small bale of hay
55 pounds = a 5000 BTU air conditioner
60 pounds = an elephant’s penis (yep, weights more than his heart!)
66 pounds = fats and oils an average American eats in a year
70 pounds = an Irish Setter
77 pounds = a gold brick
80 pounds = the World’s Largest Ball of Tape
90 pounds = a newborn calf
100 pounds = a 2 month old horse
111 pounds = red meat an average American eats in a year
117 pounds = an average fashion model (and she’s 5’11”)
118 pounds = the complete Encyclopedia Britannica
120 pounds = amount of trash you throw away in a month
130 pounds = a newborn giraffe
138 pounds = potatoes an average American eats in a year
140 pounds = refined sugar an average American eats in a year
144 pounds = an average adult woman (and she’s 5’4”)
150 pounds = the complete Oxford English Dictionary
187 pounds = an average adult man
200 pounds = 2 Bloodhounds
235 pounds = Arnold Schwarzenegger
300 pounds = an average football lineman
400 pounds = a Welsh pony

I WANNA RUN!!!!

Why is it that when I'm stuck at my desk working and don't have the option to leave, is when I always get the biggest urges to work out? But then when I'm off work and staring my elliptical down from across the room, I feel not only no urge to work out, but an even bigger urge NOT to work out? I don't get this...I think it's some form of witchery that the junk food or diet pill people put on me.

Well I got my current issue of Women's Health magazine and decided...for once...to open it. I found this ad for Nike + and it had something to do w/ipods too. So I looked into it more online and found out what that's all about. I'm sure most of you already know, but basically, Nike has these shoes that you put this little sensor into and that sensor links up with your ipod or Nike wrist band. While you're running/walking, the sensor reports your speed, milage, pace, etc. to the band and/or the ipod. While you're listening to music, you can press a button on your ipod and the Nike sensor chip will tell you, through your ipod, how many miles/steps you've taken, how far you have to go, etc! It's really cool! And the wrist band is actually a USB that you plug into your computer to upload your workouts onto your computer. The Nike website has all kinds of features that allow you to interact w/other runners/walkers. You can view popular routs that other people in your area go on, in case you're looking for a running buddy! You can get into a jogging competition with someone who lives on the other side of the country as you! Really...technology just amazes me :) I swear I'm not adverstising for Nike :) lol, but I really am impressed w/all the interactive/social features that are now part of people's work outs. So, for the shoes (which are specially shaped for my high arches and fat thighs that tilt my feet out) and the sensor and the wrist band, it's about $170. Not bad, right? OH and that includes some cushioned socks :)

So now I'm stuck at my desk but I'm all pumped to go try some power walking, maybe even a little jogging! And I can't :( And I know when I get off work tonight (at 11pm!!) that I'm not going to be up for it.

For now, I'm making a deal with myself. I KNOW if I tell my husband I'm going to buy these things, he'll say "Absolutely not...you're just going to get the stuff because you're all excited and then you'll never use it." Then he'll jerk his head toward my elliptical. Ugh, what a butt. LOL...please understand he didn't actually do this, this is just what I KNOW he will do if I bring up $170 worth of running gear. So, to save that scene from happening, I'm going to make a preemptive deal. If I can work out on my elliptical every day....no, scratch that...5 days a week for the next month, then I can buy the running shoes and accessories :) I'd say that's a good goal!

Down (not the good kind)

Ok support team...I need you already!

I am having such a hard time. My fill did NOTHING! I'm calling first thing tomorrow morning to schedule another one. Today is my 2 month bandiversary and I haven't lost anything more this last month. Granted, I haven't gained, but come on!

How many cc's did it take for you to get to your sweet spot? What do you FEEL when you're properly filled? When my dr. was filling me up and making me drink water, she kept asking "ok how does that feel when you take a drink?" and it felt like nothing! It felt like I was taking a drink of water. What's it supposed to feel like?

Has anyone else gone through this down time so quickly after surgery? I'm TRYING to stay positive, but it's so hard right now.

THANKS SUPPORT TEAM!!!

THANKS

I don't really know how to respond to comments, so I just wanted to say "THANKS" to everyone who leaves me comments. I DO read them and TOTALLY appreciate them :) It's so nice to hear from those of you who have been through this with me and who can offer me words of wisdom and tell me when I need to just sit back, relax, and calm the crap down! LOL!

So thank you! :)